So I know I haven’t been on here in forever and I thought I should explain myself.
I have been taking a break from social media in general because I have been severely struggling with binge eating, depression, and anxiety attacks. I tried to cut every outside influence besides my closest friends and I really took the time to work on me: who I really want to be and the things I need to overcome. I have realized that putting such strict restrictions on myself is not the way to handle things, and it makes my issues a million times worse.
Here are some of the positive things I will be working on for the rest of the year and beyond:
- Finding a full time job
Positive outcomes: I will have money to go towards getting my own place, truck, and pay my bills without help from my parents.
- Saving up to buy a truck
Positive outcomes: I will finally be able to go everywhere I want to, and finding activities of solitude that I enjoy will be WAY easier with a truck (fishing, camping, visiting friends, 4wheelin).
- Incorporating more plant food into my diet
Positive outcomes: My body feels better, stronger, healthier, and I overall just have more energy when I eat more fruits, veggies, nuts, and beans. If I can incorporate more healthy choices into my eating, I will naturally lose weight and feel much better.
- Saving up to get my own place
Positive outcomes: Having my own space has always made my anxiety and depression a lot worse because its a happy place that I am in control of. I can invite whoever I want over, I can decorate it to fit my personality, and I have a sanctuary that is my own space to wind down and enjoy my spare time in.
Positive outcomes: I love hiking, kayaking, going to the beach etc. but I never go because I feel uncomfortable and like I’m not able to do it. I never really thought about it before, but I was really getting in the way of my own happiness when it comes to doing outdoor activities. Added benefit: exercise :)
- Being more girly
Positive outcomes: I feel so much more confident and happy when my hair looks nice, I’m wearing makeup, I’m rockin a cute outfit, and its one less thing I have to worry about when I go somewhere. I love feeling confident in myself, and this is a great way to do it.
Last but not least, I really just want to thank all of you that have been there for the ups and downs, the rights and lefts, and everything crazy that has happened on this blog since I began. I really appreciate all of you and I’m hoping that I will be able to share my journey with you, good or bad. Sometimes people forget that we are all human and that people who are trying to better their lives can totally get stuck in ruts for years. I’m trying to break free of that, but like I said.. I’m human and life is really hard sometimes. But I am working on it and I appreciate your support!